Life is always changing. Usually I can roll with the punches. But I’ve always craved stability, sameness, ROCK, home… We moved around a lot, well at least it seemed like a lot when I was younger. I attended a boarding school from age 13 on so I was only “home” in the summers; then college, then teaching in Alaska.
In my heart of hearts, I’ve always wanted the cozy house you grew up in your whole life with the neighbors you’ve known for years. Sounds silly doesn’t it? I’m realistic to know that home is where you make it, it’s an attitude, a feeling, being with those you love. But sometimes I still want the silly old building on the foundation. So I sometimes have a yearning, a homesickness if you will that churns up when change is on the horizon. A resistance to change…
My parents are aging, we’ve lost so many aunts and uncles and other friends and relatives in the last few years – it just hits home how lucky I am to have both parents. And to have them only minutes away. It’s absolutely precious. But in a year or two that’s all going to change.
I love the thought of moving closer to family, but I hate the thought of moving in general. The buying of a new home, making new relationships. Change, change, and more change. Now – when the moment arrives – I’ll embrace it and make an adventure of it, I assure you. But now I sit in dread… and my “homesickness” whelms up.
3 comments:
interesting view on moving. As a child I moved a lot as a small child, but then I grew up in the same house from 5th grade on. Even in marriage I haven't moved a lot. We lived in a rental house for 4 years, our first house 6 years and what I call our final home for 30 years so far. Bad thing is you never clean out lol. I love the stability of a long standing home. We have the mobility in our travels and we can always come home. lol I think my comment is longer than your post :)
Don't remind me! We're moving only about an hour away, but the friends I hang out with while their older kids are in school - we won't be able to get together that far apart :( I'm focusing on what a great area we're moving to and how much we like the house!
Are you planning to move in a year or two? I think I remember you mentioning that. Maybe moving closer to your hubby's family in Idaho? What will your mom and dad do?
It's hard but also good to plan this far ahead. Your brain and heart will have lots of time to get used to the idea. You'll be good and ready when the time comes.
Make sure you enjoy where you are now too, though!
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